hey ppl. ok i got a new lj because this name no longer is who i am. and no longer how i live so i got a new one as

hope_always

 so for all you ppl that read my journal still if you want me to add you send me a comment on that one.

well a lot has changed these past few days. i have a new look on life. and its all because of God. i went to church yesterday and i've been completely changed for the better finally. i never thought i would reach this point in my relationship with God. i never thought i would want to read my bible. i never thought i would really want to go to church. i havent smoked in 2 days and i have really no urge i havent drank and i have no urge to drink or even have sex. i went to jen's house tonight the guys were there and i took nick and they were all drinkin but i wasnt i had no urge. i feel so different and really truly free now. ppl always described that living in God is really truly being free. i didnt believe it til it happend to me.